I felt I needed to write to you to get some things off my
chest. I have, as you know, been really upset and down
lately. This is all your fault. Sorry if this sounds
harsh, but it’s fact.

For the past 2 weeks you have been so cruel and horrible
to me, you have abused my body as if it were worth
nothing.

I try to stay positive. I try to stay strong, even though
all the time you are hurting me and continue to do so. I
feel that I am constantly living in fear of you. It’s not
right and it’s not fair. You don’t care about the
devastation that you leave behind. I seem to be always
taking one step forward and 3 steps back with you.

It would be a bit easier to handle if I thought that you
really didn’t mean it, but no, you are aggresive with it
as well. You don’t care that you are hurting me, my family
and friends. Infact I have since found out that there are
more women that you do this to. Why do you do this all the time? Do you get a kick out of it?

Your sick, spiteful, selfish and downright cruel!!

Do you know what though BC? I have grown in the past 2
weeks. I have learnt to be strong, to be positive, and
while I have breath in my body I am going to fight you!
I will not lay down and just accept the way you treat me.
No more Mrs nice person, I am going to be as mean as you.

You see Dear Breast Cancer you are not going to beat me, I am going to beat you!!!

Yours
Mrs Faz

Check it out – http://www.cleaningforareason.org/index.html

Cancer, Cancer, Go AWAY,
Don’t come back any other day!

I now know more and that is supposed to make me feel better. But… it doesn’t. In fact, I think I feel worse now that I know more

Well, all I really wanted to say is I’m determined that we won’t have any more anniversaries. I want a “divorce” from cancer.

My family and friends and doctors and everyone keeps telling me what to expect but everything is different in my life now – how the hell do they know what to expect – you can’t expect anything with cancer around. It’s different every day.

Sometimes one thing makes me feel good, sometimes it hurts like hell. Someone please find that right mix everytime.

You suck!

So, enjoy it while you can. We’re coming for you, not to mention the fact that even right now there are some amazing things being done.

See what else Cancer (specifically Drew’s) has done, and get on board with this idea NOW. #BlamDrewsCancer

http://blamedrewscancer.com/

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To view, goto: http://www.lemons-to-lemonade.com/lemonstolemonade.html

The 20 poems in Lemonade Notes To Cancer chronicle my journey through brain cancer. Beginning from the shock of hearing a doctor’s prognosis, my theme evolves through learning to focus on and welcome desired outcomes, living in the moment and with appreciation to readying myself to give up the security of treatment and shift beyond my identity as a cancer patient. The poems in Lemonade Notes To Cancer offer a universal message that can help anyone who is facing a major change or challenge to understand what is important, focus on their desired outcomes and move on.

I gratefully acknowledge the huge roll that the loving support of my family and friends has played in my healing and creative process.

You are a creep lurking in the dark. You always seem to attack without warning, it is an unfair game. You are malicious with your intent. I loathe your strength and your ability to draw tears at the mention of your name. I abhor you to the nth degree. I wish you nothing but harm, radiation, and remission. I want you to crawl back into whatever space you came from and die there — slowly and painfully.

What you don’t know is that although you often have the upper hand, you can be beat. You can be forced into remission and you will someday be able to be eradicated by a cure. Your days are numbered.

I am not sure how you sleep at night, but I hope you often feel the heat of my wrath as you drift off. I hope you have nightmares about me burning you alive and discarding your remains. I hope you toss and turn all night with that ominous feeling that you are no longer safe — not even in your dreams.

I wish you all the pain in the world and an ocean full of tears,

A.Tobias

So I have news for you: Pay close attention!

- I will not close myself in a dark room and cry with fears that you are getting close to me again.
- I will not be paralyzed just expecting you to come visit again.. .I AM FIGHTING AGAINST YOU and like Amy says… I am playing DEFENSE
- I will not longer be afraid of a move because that may mean new doctors/insurances/etc… We ARE moving … and I will show you that my fight will be better and stronger.
- I will no longer just HOPE for a cure to send you back to the ugly place you came from.. I will be actively involved in actions and organizations that have CURE CANCER on their business plans.

It ’s ok Cancer… are you scared? It is ok..

Just Bow to me and walk/stay away .. I have my life, my family that need me without having ALWAYS your stupid name coming up.

Oh ..and one more thing: remember all the weight ( literally ) that you left behind??? yes , that one from all the *shit* you had me take so I could stay alive and Kick your ass??? Oh… I am happy to tell you that that too is on its way out. I am back on my skinny jeans ( oh, skinny for me at least! )

So Cancer… SAYONARA … bye bye…tchuss ! Go get lost ! I am seriously DONE with you.

big kiss
xo
fg

Posted originally at:

http://backoffcancer.blogspot.com/2009/01/dear-cancer.html

DianaLB