A little more then two weeks ago, cancer took my Mother & Best Friend away from me. My Mother was 63 years old and died from a year and a half battle with cervical cancer. After endless rounds of chemo and radiation and and far too many sleepless night filled with back pain, nausea, constipation and fear the cancer took my Mother’s life. The cancer eventually spread to other areas of her body including her lymph nodes, liver and the start of her lungs and kidneys. I can’t beging to tell you how cancer robbed my Mother not only of her hair but her dignity and respect. She was a beautiful woman filled with joy, happiness and a zest for lift. In many ways my Mother just started living her life as a “senior” and cancer robbed her of that, of growing to an old little woman with gray hair. I am a 33 year old married woman who will have to spend the rest of my life mourning and missing my Mother, my children will never my Mother’s warm embrace and they will never know how much she would have loved them or how much I loved her, no matter how many pictures I could fill one up with. I was my Mother’s sole caretaker putting my life on hold for my mother, I don’t regret any of it for one second, but now as not only her caretaker but as her daughter and best friend, I am completely lost without her. I can’t even begin to express the sadness I feel in my heart and how many times in these past 2 short weeks I have gone to pick up the phone and call her, I now call her cell phone everyday just so I can hear her voice on her message. Cancer not only took my Mother away from her loving family but cancer has taken a piece of my life away as well. This weekend is Mother’s Day the first without my Mother, my Mother will always live in my mind and heart but I have to tell you I would much rather have my Mother here with me then for her to be my guardian angel.